oh someone help~

.la princesa del sur. says (12:09 AM):
cmon lets brainstorm!!
what do you like to do?
as in what topics u knw kalau u do.. will keep u motivated & interested to do all e wayy?
randomness says (12:10 AM):
tats a bonus qs ive been askin myself..
n u noe what i realise???
.la princesa del sur. says (12:10 AM):
what?
randomness says (12:11 AM):
i actually hav no idea cos all along ive been putting my interest on hold n sort of lost all of it cos ive been busy "devoting" my time to pid proj

yes...sad but true.
PID - thats the name of my course.
ive been busy tryin to do well/score/pass my pasts projects that i actually dun really entertain my interests or hobbies or even having new ones. i actually put them on hold as i noe that my grades are important to me n on the line..altho i always get myself Dsss. tsk tsk.

now as im facing my FYP..its really botherin me cos ive no idea what to work on. i noe there ARE alot of things to work on in the market..but considerin my lack of creativity juices n no idea which suitable area to look into..i think i AM standin on thin ice.

i need to brainstorm n find my life back.

meeeooowww~~

let me tell u a story of a CAT.

this is - Manja aka Tiger (and so we -my family- call her. heh)

cute? i noe..

shes just any ordinary stray cat which likes loitering ard my residential area. obviously the ppl here likes her cos i always see them playin or just plain strokin her n stuff. so yea.

anyways, this cat here is one manja cat. she just love to rub against her body against ppl's legs whenever we stand near her. at first i was quite ticklish bout it..but now i can maintain. haha.

n yeaa..she definitely likes to sit on the carpet at my doorstep.

-guarding in process-

see what i mean. thats HER spot. haha.

comfy iznt it? hehe.

one thing good bout her is that she doesnt enter my home. even if she was about to..we will stop her n she will listen n sit outside n continue guardin. heh. we dint wanna make it a habit for her to enter our home freely plus no intention of adopting her. something like "foster parents".

hoho!

and yea..thats her eating her yum yum food. n lazyin ard outside. she likes to be fed too. shes just sooo manja la. im beginnin to hav a soft spot for her, however shes not playful.

shes the kind which will just giv u the "whatever" look. if u get what i mean. haha.

but at the end of the day, we still hafta leave her out of the house.

sorry cat.

meow meow.

slamat hari raya

raya has come..but somehow i dun seem to feel the raye vibe much this yr.

but anyhows..such contributions i did this raye..

1. i cooked. hoho! yes ma'am i cooked. n boy it was such fun stuff. haha. ever heard of sambal goreng? yes. i learnt how to cook that from part A to part Z! dun worry. u eat. i no poison u. :) pass! wanna learn some more. :)

2. i clean toilet. yes. impress? thank you. haha. shinyshiny n smoothsmooth. i like. lets scrubscrub. oh-the-soap-smell.

3. i kemas my room. clean n tidy. (will be messy again once sch starts. hur hur.)

4. i sick. hur hur. such good timing i hav. oOoOo ubaaatt...oOoOo drowsyyy...oOoOo nose dun run away from meeee...but at least not so teruk la. bole tahan halal. :)

i shld giv myself a *pat at the back*. haha. such sudden self-improvisations.
well..just feel like i shld contribute something this raye..esp since both my sis da kawin n left me at home. i sad. i lonely. lets not emo. hahaha..ok bad joke.

my baju raya tak smpt siap. its ok. i dun mind. i hav alternatives. yayness!

i wished EVERYONE slamat beraye too. :) i bored. such entertainment i hav. hurmph...the expected n the unexpected. "bedal jer sume tiga2 tuu.." onli i noe..u duno nvm. enjoy!

"things u do when ur all alone at home."

YIKES!

heart-shaped paru anyone? :)
lovelove

last days of ramadhan

last night was really an interesting night.

went to geylang n boy sooooo ramai orrrgggg!!! phew!

but interestingly i bump into quite a number of familiar faces.

n that includes ARTISTSS!! dang! norfasarie n fiance, baihakki (right spellin? yes? no?) n boy was he tall!! very very tall. n i like norfa's hair. the style, not colour. heh.

then surprise surprise...

i bump into my KINDERGARTEN fren. HOW BOUT THAT!!! super old skool to the max!

too bad he dint recognise me. dude..oh how u've grown. n u still look like the gd lookin boi boi. haha!! :)

it feels gd to meet old frens. n see how they've been doin n all. too bad we cant catch up wit each other. :/

surprisingly also..this ramadhan i dun really bother bout buying the foods.

i dun really feel like eating any of those even! hur hur.

celebrated huda's bday a few days ago.

n surprisingly i actually enjoyed myself. very much. well actually im not really a birthday party kinda girl. but this is exceptional.

i felt comfortable. i felt welcomed. i was being myself. n it felt good. thanx guys. hehe.

we even teased her n her bf when he called (altho i barely know him. hurh.) but its good to tease. the art of teasing, i like. :D

i also got the ultimate FYP brief last tues. n boy i so DO NOT wanna read it before raye. n i still haf NOT read the brief up till now. hoho! lets just leave it that way for now aite. :)

"we went thru thick n thin together in those 3 yrs of friendship. n i hope the friendship continues!!"

wish liane n azi was there..!

n the song goes "ku mengharapkan ramadhan kali ini penuh makna"

i guess it does. one way or another.. despite the hardships, the struggles, the joys, the sadness, etc etc....

GOD LOVES ME. i love HIM too. :)

i feel so blessed. hehe.

you..

im tired of u always throwing tantrum, always berdentam-dentum brg2, always sulking.


do u noe i cant take this anymore?
do u noe im stressed up everytime this happens?
dont u noe thats y i ALWAYS stay out..always try to find something to do outside...
do u even noe that i cry silently in my room..in the toilet?? in the middle of the nite? n just now while doin the laundry??
have u any idea that this thot "i cant wait to get married n get out of here" EVER crossed my mind ever since both sis got married??


thats the reason y i always stay away
always in my room, in front of the comp...mindin MY OWN BUSINESS.
partly also the reason why i dun wanna get any bf..scared of ur comments or remarks.
i dun show u my true self.


i tried to get along wit you.

tried to help u ard...

tried to show u the real me.

but i always get myself hurt at the end of the day..nothing i do seems rite huh

i tried not to be rude.
u think u noe me so well..well news flash. YOU DONT!

its out

results are out. YES! results are out. the whole kampung of TP Design noes that! hehe.

the moment that i sort of waiting for yet keep myself away from..my heart dropped n i froze for a sec when i got the msg. dint wanna open it till liane had to persuade n psycho me to opening it. hur hur.

well, i hafta say alhamdulillah for my grades.

I PASS P3!!! i seriously tot i had failed considering lect's reactions n all..haiz..D+. jadi la.. bole tahan halal!! hehe!

n yea..JAPANESE!! tak sia sia ku blajar language mu.. kini ku jadi "haik, harajuku girl!!" hoho!!! B+ for that. n my dad says "ok, skarang u can work kat japan alr" hur hur. wait over there satu word pun takkan ku paham. (too fast diorg bobal)

well, i hafta say im pleased wit my results. sape tak kaann..gile kalo kate tak please. i pass for goodness sake! n also got one more distinction. :D happy happy slalu... but ive got ONE ULTIMATE SUBJECT LEFT!! FINAL YEAR PROJECT. n also one more cds to go. haiz.. hang in there!!

i kept thinking what am i gonna do aft i grad. i really dunno. one thing for sure, i wun be entering university. the expenses n finance. i cant make my parents pay even if i want to enter. actually i dunno if i wanna enter in the first place! most prob aft i grad i'll definitely try to find a job..n help my parents wit bills n any other expenses n stuff. they've spent quite a hefty sum on me n my edu..its time i repay their hard work. choices? be an art teacher....or be a graphic designer or sumthing along that line i guess.. any other choices..i'll hafta start askin ard to widen my choices. worst case scenario...part time first or not-related design jobs.. :/

but for now..lets just happy happy PUASEEE n RAYAAAA!!!! then face the ultimate subject. with open arms and fikiran yg tenang. AMIN!