saturday

i had a fruitful and enjoyable day last saturday.

really manage to enjoy and destress myself.

finally, i see the LIGHT. hahah.

started off going to sch for APEL class.

it was the last class, and we're the first grp to present.

finally we manage to get it done and over with.

then the gang went for lunch.

which aft that liane sent me to safra yishun.

and the oh-so-nice liane just had to trick me! saying that we had board the wrong bus and its gonna take 1 hr to reach!

wei..just because i stayed in the east side doesnt mean u can bully me hor!

well..just as we reached there my friends and sis just gotta reach later than the meeting time.

so, considering that we have nothing else to do, me and li decided to play the arcade!

nyehehe..we played from shooting to racing cars and bikes to "bishi bashi" to driving a truck/lorry?

but it was fun fun fun!!!

aft that li went home and i met my friends which we then went for sports climbing, which was still at safra yishun.

its an outdoor place and the walls are really high! shiok! but i dint manage to climb that high tho cos my hands got tired and the "rocks" were slippery. haiz..but it was really worth it, tho it was drizzling.

manage to destress and its been a long time since i last climbed

(did i mention that its outdoor and its really high?!!?)..so yea..

the feeling of i-miss-climbing kinda got cured. hehe.

then night came.

which my friends and i then rushed to kallang stadium/national stadium

(which one izit? or izit the same? hah!)

for the soccer match between SINGAPORE and MALAYSIA.

at first i tot it was the end when m'sia scored.

but it got a twist at the end and spore WON!! woohoo! haha.

(ive never been this patriotic towards soccer b4. seriously dont know what came over me)

it was a great experience tho, cos its my first soccer match that ive EVER attended! LIVE!

hahaha...

and im gonna go for the finals, btw.

so look out for me if ur going yea! hope to get a good seat.

the last time was ok lar.. i sat right under the score board. hmm..

HOLDING ON!!

i seriously dont know how many times ive cried cos of Project 2.

i dont know how many times ive refrain myself from crying cos of Project 2.

i dont know how many times ive become brain dead or im always put at a apot cos of Project 2.

i dont know how many times i thot of giving up cos of Project 2.

im tired of having to spent so much money on such expensive materials.

im tired of always asking people for help or solutions cos i seriously dont know how DnT works.

im tired of always being clueless of what to do or how to do.

but nonetheles,

i try to remain calm.

i try to think positive.

i try to remain strong.

i try to challenge myself.

i try to push myself further.

i try to motivate myself.

my source of motivation???

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xjk2cMrZ2dI

its from the movie "Raise Your Voice".

the lyrics are very meaningful..esp if u sing along to it.

plus..the deadline's near..its a pity and wasted effort if i were to give up now.

i just need to HOLD ON for a week!!!

GO SHEELA!!! :S

show me the light.

biar susah dahulu, senang kemudian.

(face hardships first, and you'll get success in the future)

my translation is no that good..but oh well!

that phrase has always been the one motivating me throughout my journey in poly.

but for now, i dont know if i can rely on it any longer.

again, im on the verge of giving up.

but i CANT. i DONT WANT. i SHOULD NOT.

im tired. im exhausted. im disappointed.

once again, i hafta pick myself up from the fall.

the fall that have the same cause all the time.

and the cause is, my ideas is always not fully developed (not good enuf) or its already in the market.

and somehow, theres always no time for me to work on it. therefore i hafta "chop chop".

theres two sides of me talking.

one is a negative, and the other is a positive.

i always try to ALWAYS listen to the positive,

but i myself wonder,

"how strong is my positive, to make me be able to go thru with this hurdle?"

i know im not the give up kind,

i know i can still make it, not alot, a little bit will do.

"but how strong can i be to pull myself up back again?"

i just hope that i'll be stronger as days goes by.

i hope and pray that GOD give me strength and guidance to pick myself back again.

i hope that i could generate ideas fast. good ideas.

i hope that i could do well for P2.

i hope that there's an extension in the deadline. :/

beginning of 2007

oh k..finally ive decided to update my blog. havent been having the mood or idea to "talk" on my blog, ever since my late cousin passed away.

suddenly i feel like "whats the use of blogging when at the end of the day u'll go..n who actually cared?" hmm...up till now sometimes when i think bout her death, i dont seem to be able to accept it. was close to her when i was little girl..not anymore when ive grown older, but secretly speaking, evry raya i would look out for her when my family go visiting to my aunt's house. and being able to just see her would just make me feel contented. so for the next raya...i dont know how it'll be.

well, lets put that thot at the back of my head for now. cos life have to carry on..

its 2007, and this yr i DONT have any new yr resolutions. cos i think its dumb, and truthfully speaking, i dont follow any of my past resolutions if i ever rmb them. so whats the point of having them - pointless! hah!

the updates that i have ever since new yr is that

• ive started my project 2 again, which will make me be very busy. i just hope that i'll be able to cope considering that i have limited days of finishing my project. i wonder how other poly schooling students from all courses is able to cope esp if they're juggling work, school, cca, studying, blah blah... its like "izit me who is bad at managing time or izit really cos i have lots of work to do or have i been lazying ard (which i doubt that)?" hmmm....
• next is that i play taufik batisah's latest cd almost everyday. harhar! not that im so patriotic towards our first s'pore idol, but i think the songs are good and pleasing to the ears. :) u go boy! hee...
• then there's me always feeling lazy to eat altho when im hungry..i just feel like im always eating and now im tired of it. i also dont understand.
• and im also feeling lazy for now to dress up when i go to school, unlike when i was yr 1 or first sem of yr 2. prob for now, close to being a senior have put me to have that 'whatever' mood of my dressing sense, and the 'i cant be bothered' thing going on. which is bad cos ive got sip(attachment) and we need to dress up and look presentable.
• i think, im kinda sensing the existence of me transforming from a "girl" to a "lady". im entering the big 2 this yr..(*hint hint*) and somehow im beginning to like and want to
  1. carry a handbag instead of the usual tote bag (which ive accomplished that)
  2. try to wear make up :X i mean like compact powder, blusher, lip gloss, eye shadow +++, instead of just eyeliner, lip gloss n powder. BUT laziness always gets the better of me. khekhekhe...
  3. wear a V-shape/pointed pump shoe instead of the usual sneakers
• i experienced GOD's love towards me and that He's always there for me. (its btwn me and Him..haah)

well...thats all i can think of for now. gotta get back to my sketches. :B