s-c-a-r-e-d

i realise that the word SCARED is a very strong and impactful word on me.

because of SCARED,
i tend to hold myself back from doing alot of things.
i tend to restrict myself to certain things.
i tend to be wary and cautious of my actions.
i tend to think ALOT before i act. (there's alot of WHAT IFs goin thru my head)
and i usually take the safer and logical path.

im just scared of what the outcome gonna be
...scared of makin mistakes

basically, im just scared of getting hurt...one way or another.
i noe, who doesnt, right?
but thats just me.
i have this tendency of "once bitten, twice shy" attitude in me.
that i get serik easily. that "i-dont-wanna-go-thru-again." scenario.

im scared of not living to expectations. mine or my parents..or just the ppl ard me.
truthfully, im scared to show my true emotions and feelings too.
cos all this will lead to me getting hurt.

i noe its not healthy but i cant stop being scared. hur hur.

i guess i need to learn to take risks. :/