wheres my confidence booster??

so here i am.
surfing the net. listening to my imeem.com
browsing thru jobsdb.com and jobscentral.com, and i realised hw scared and unsure i am.

well there are alot of jobs and different positions available.
but theres so many things goin thru my mind for me to even have the courage to go forward and apply.

1. my dip cert; its nt even relevant to the ones i wanna apply to
2. my portfolio. personally i dun find it strong enuf if i wanna apply to the jobs tht i wan. its so artsy fartsy and basic.
3. my knowledge of the softwares. its basic. ive got alot more to learn but..
4. my creativity level. ok..i hav the talent of executing it but creating designs..hmm..
5. exactly which job/position do i wana do? wad profession do i wanna go into?
6. if i were given the job, i prob cld do it well, but am i able to reach their standards??

i tink my confidence is just low. and im just worryin myself too much. and maybe im puttin too much pressure on myself.
hurh! i duno la.
its just so stressing if i cant reach their standards. my portfolio. oh boy.



BUT!
im suppose to DREAM BIG!
so dream big shla. for you'll never noe ur chances and future.


just received my whole 3yrs transcript. some disappointing grades but i noe i did my best. :] i cant complain much nw. i noe my strengths n weaknesses. on the other hand i dun seem to be gettin the job tht i noe i can do. maybe theres more to it than meets the eye.
sometimes i ask myself "just exactly wat am i good at thn?"