show me the light.

biar susah dahulu, senang kemudian.

(face hardships first, and you'll get success in the future)

my translation is no that good..but oh well!

that phrase has always been the one motivating me throughout my journey in poly.

but for now, i dont know if i can rely on it any longer.

again, im on the verge of giving up.

but i CANT. i DONT WANT. i SHOULD NOT.

im tired. im exhausted. im disappointed.

once again, i hafta pick myself up from the fall.

the fall that have the same cause all the time.

and the cause is, my ideas is always not fully developed (not good enuf) or its already in the market.

and somehow, theres always no time for me to work on it. therefore i hafta "chop chop".

theres two sides of me talking.

one is a negative, and the other is a positive.

i always try to ALWAYS listen to the positive,

but i myself wonder,

"how strong is my positive, to make me be able to go thru with this hurdle?"

i know im not the give up kind,

i know i can still make it, not alot, a little bit will do.

"but how strong can i be to pull myself up back again?"

i just hope that i'll be stronger as days goes by.

i hope and pray that GOD give me strength and guidance to pick myself back again.

i hope that i could generate ideas fast. good ideas.

i hope that i could do well for P2.

i hope that there's an extension in the deadline. :/