bye 2007

someone asked me this qs..


whats the good thing or bad thing that hav happened in ur 2007?


now that got me thinking..
and after thinking for so long..n hard.. i came up wit this list...
i shall just put top 10 good ones..or what i cld rmb for now. haha.


1. getting another bro-in-law.

2. seeing both my sis pregnant.

3. the chance to feel the baby move in the tummy

4. the chance to get to know 2 frens better..(HUDA and AMAL of course!!) gosh..u guys are such great frens ..n thank you for the friendship..im glad that we got closer.. n the agft.. *sobs*

5. somehow attendin alot of weddings...(alot of ppl are getting married alr ah)

6. learnin to cook!! haha...(sambal goreng, jemput2 pisang, pancake..cant rmb what else)

7. first times : girls' overnite, cycling in the rain, being an auntie (soon), sort of start fire for bbq,

8. spore celebrated NDP at marina bay. hah!

9. the cat that existed in my life for a short while..

10. SCRAMBLERS. :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL.

friends.

let me dedicate this post to my friends..

let the photos do the talkin.

now EVERYONE...lets do this together...all go

"AAWWWW...."

start plannin alr!

oooh...emo me.

hahhaha
ive been listenin to ALOT of love songs lately...ok make that for the past days or wks. 0.0
oh man...one after another love songs..
malay...english...indo... haaa...
ive no idea wats up wit me..
hahaha...

i need to snap out of this but the songs are just so nice to listen to n lovely.
yikes! hahaha!!

(i wanna fall in love also can...why is he always LOST?? hahha!!)
ok that wasnt me talkin/typing. it was my split personality. my alter-ego. my MIND who did the typing.. eep!!

okok..im workin my butt off for fyp..next ting i noe my presentation hav been postponed!
-.- from mon to wed. haiz..but ok la..more time to work on my work. but...haiz...haha.

the girls (huddy n amal) are out of the country! n i bet they're so havin fun at selangor camp. im gettin bored. seems like we've been havin some kind of meet ups evry wkend..or at least once a wk...n not mtg them this wkend kinda bores me..altho i bid them gdbye yest.
:( sadness..see them on the bus n zoomin off to m'sia. hurhur. but oh well.

im gettin back my drawin skills. hav been losing touch to it for god knows when. ive been drawin n erasin n drawing n erasin..im glad i dint create any holes to the paper. now im gettin it back slowly. :)

lets make a countdown.. now is dec...ive got ard..end of feb will be my fyp submission. erk! thats gonna be fast. then theres diploma show in mar..wait. open house in jan..OoOooO..all this time to work on n polish up my products.. argh! hahah..lets get stress ppl~ no tgif for me.

"work like theres no tmr" - my lect. O.o
oh boy~

the walk.

my leg is in P-A-I-N.

hahahaaa...

such cleverness i have. the day that im gonna do lots of walkin is the day that i wore the new shoe. hah! serve me rite! now im havin blisters all over. hehe. i should hav just worn my sneakers..but then again..its ok to wanna look feminine sometimes rite..(even tho u end up getting hurt. haha!!)

i wan some REFLEXOLOGY. pls.

we walked..ALOT!!!
from somerset to far east plaza. (makan!)
from little india to tekka mall to mustapha centre. (run errands -.-) *ouch*
from somerset again to orchard. (run "leftover" errands and makan!)

i hav no idea how many kilometers we actually walked but im sure thats one hell of a walk. with all the CROWDSSSSSS...oh boy!
plus the many many barangs n packin and wrappin the hampers, with only 3 ppl doin it. lucky theres an addition of 2 more guys at the end of the day..who did the participant kits. haaa...
n i bet kak nur n huda had "FUN" wrappin the hampers. heh.. im really sorry i left early. :S

but im glad that we manage to more or less finish up wit all the packin. now we wait for the big day..which i really hope i can go. haaa....pls let me go. 0.0

im ur no1 FAN!

was watchin TabTV just now..
it was bout fans and their idols.

n tat made me think..am i like them??
hahah..cos they talked bout "im ur no1 fan" kinda thing..
giving gifts on all sorts of occasions, buyin n collectin ALL the idols pics n stuff..even to the extent of stalkin them!! gosh~ they even know when's their birthdates. 0.0

i was superbly shocked n wow-ed by these people..in a way i admire their supportive acts..
but in another way..its like "no way im gonna spend my money on all those stuff man. im broke dude!". 0.0
altho i do sometimes buy, but not all.
n i do go gaga over some artists..but at the end of the day i dun even go for their autograph sessions, or even go down to the nearest mall for their performances.
HAHAHAH!!! call me a fan huh.

nawira says (2:05 AM):
'usah biarkan ku bersendirian'?
va va vrooom, babe! says (2:05 AM):
huh?
tu mane nyer lagu tu?
nawira says (2:05 AM):
usah biar diri ku sini
seorng menunggu tanpa teman
va va vrooom, babe! says (2:06 AM):
ah??
nawira says (2:06 AM):
cakap je no1 fan
ish ish ish his lyrics also u don noe
va va vrooom, babe! says (2:06 AM):
i TOLD u...i dun listen to liriksss
even tho i mite sing-a-long
hahahha
va va vrooom, babe! says (2:07 AM):
i dun even noe what im singin
hahahah

okaayyy...u cant blame me..im the type of girl who doesnt listen to lyrics. the first thing that catches my ears are the tunes n melody of the music..n if its nice..i'll definitely like it. but sometimes i do listen to SOME lyrics. hee..sorry~ O.o

and she goes he he he~

hmm..

have you ever wonder...

Whats the first thing that attracts you to the opposite gender?

hahaha!!

had this convo wit one of my fren just now.

interestingly mine was..

1. the smile. :)

its those kind like it melts the heart; gives warmth. mcm sincere la.

wit an addition of that cheeky/playful effect. yet shy? :P

eg : shy to say but..TB. CMM.

(ill shall just giv acronyms.)

2. the eyes. *winkwink*

heh heh. this one killer. its those like mcm deep set, smokey effect, then mcm ade spark gitu.

sure melt la. hehe. tapi ade that playful eyes. O.o

eg : TB (again), JH, CMM

3. the character/attitude.

i shall leave that un-defined la ah.

huahuahua..suspen gitu!

okok..some character from shows u can refer to..

(abit of) the leadin actor - a walk to rmb

(cos u see..bad boy/that "cari pasal" face somehow intrigues me 0.0)

BUT characters i like...hehe (SHHH!!!)

jack sparrow - pirates of the carribean
worms - coach carter
bumblebee - transformers movie

ok..i shall stop here..before i continue day(night) dreaming.

heh..

ooh la la~

no ordinary sleepover.

30th Nov 07.

marks my very first sleepover. haha.
thanks hudsiee...for the invite. :)

had a blast..tho i dint talk much? i tink? more like i did lots of coughin. haha.
truthfully at first, i was contemplating whether to stay over anot. but somehow the hands did the packin. O.o hahaha..

such sinful indulgence..old-skool games...late night movies..bantals n slimuts in living room...
wait..u slpt early!! hahah...no late night movie for u..
(thanx for only wakin up when the credits are out. i bet they appreciate that. hehe. joke!)

kecoh-ness!!
n yes i even shout out my name rite at ur corridor..thank you very much. -.-

ouh!! btw huda..
"i can seee!!!!" - puts on her contacts.
HAHAHAH!!!!

ooh la la~~

ive got a confession to make. :X

ive got 2 YOUNG eye candies. :P

one's a yr 1, the other's a yr 2. :X

such young eye candies...hahahha!!!

they sure make my day!! EVERYDAY!!!

those kind that will surely make me senyum sipu2. hehe!

like "ah" then ur breath like ter-put-on-hold gitu?

hahaha...

okok..

thats all for the "Shla Syiok Sendiri (SSS)" session/syndrome.

NEXT!

i luuurrrvveee my neighbourhood.

cosss....

I PRACTICALLY GETTA SEE SCRAMBLERS EVERYDAY!!!!!!!

whoooaaaaaaa.....

day n night, inside n outside (of house)

i getta see sehhhhh. yahooooo!

while in my room, scrambler pass.

while walking to sch, scrambler pass or parked at some carpark

while coming home from sch also same2!!!

i open the gate to my house door alr right in front at the carpark....

scrambler parked right in front of my doorstep gitu. 0.0

*drools*

up, down, left, right, far, near

scramblers everywhere....

scrambler galore~~

VA VA VROOOM, BABE!

LIFE in year3sem2

year3sem2..

theres more to it than just bout sch n fyp..

its bout growing up n LIFE

how do u share if u just dunno how/where to start?

how do u keep movin when everything just pulls u back?

how do u stop thinkin when everything just keeps coming?

how do u try to keep smiling when deep down ur actually crying?

how do u try to see the good things when ard u are just problems?

how do u keep motivating yourself, when ur on the verge of giving up?

how do u find the courage of facing it when all u wanna do is to run away?

how do u stop urself from being over-sensitive when ur heart hav alr reach to that stage?

Someone's Watching Over Me - Raise Your Voice OST

oh someone help~

.la princesa del sur. says (12:09 AM):
cmon lets brainstorm!!
what do you like to do?
as in what topics u knw kalau u do.. will keep u motivated & interested to do all e wayy?
randomness says (12:10 AM):
tats a bonus qs ive been askin myself..
n u noe what i realise???
.la princesa del sur. says (12:10 AM):
what?
randomness says (12:11 AM):
i actually hav no idea cos all along ive been putting my interest on hold n sort of lost all of it cos ive been busy "devoting" my time to pid proj

yes...sad but true.
PID - thats the name of my course.
ive been busy tryin to do well/score/pass my pasts projects that i actually dun really entertain my interests or hobbies or even having new ones. i actually put them on hold as i noe that my grades are important to me n on the line..altho i always get myself Dsss. tsk tsk.

now as im facing my FYP..its really botherin me cos ive no idea what to work on. i noe there ARE alot of things to work on in the market..but considerin my lack of creativity juices n no idea which suitable area to look into..i think i AM standin on thin ice.

i need to brainstorm n find my life back.

meeeooowww~~

let me tell u a story of a CAT.

this is - Manja aka Tiger (and so we -my family- call her. heh)

cute? i noe..

shes just any ordinary stray cat which likes loitering ard my residential area. obviously the ppl here likes her cos i always see them playin or just plain strokin her n stuff. so yea.

anyways, this cat here is one manja cat. she just love to rub against her body against ppl's legs whenever we stand near her. at first i was quite ticklish bout it..but now i can maintain. haha.

n yeaa..she definitely likes to sit on the carpet at my doorstep.

-guarding in process-

see what i mean. thats HER spot. haha.

comfy iznt it? hehe.

one thing good bout her is that she doesnt enter my home. even if she was about to..we will stop her n she will listen n sit outside n continue guardin. heh. we dint wanna make it a habit for her to enter our home freely plus no intention of adopting her. something like "foster parents".

hoho!

and yea..thats her eating her yum yum food. n lazyin ard outside. she likes to be fed too. shes just sooo manja la. im beginnin to hav a soft spot for her, however shes not playful.

shes the kind which will just giv u the "whatever" look. if u get what i mean. haha.

but at the end of the day, we still hafta leave her out of the house.

sorry cat.

meow meow.

slamat hari raya

raya has come..but somehow i dun seem to feel the raye vibe much this yr.

but anyhows..such contributions i did this raye..

1. i cooked. hoho! yes ma'am i cooked. n boy it was such fun stuff. haha. ever heard of sambal goreng? yes. i learnt how to cook that from part A to part Z! dun worry. u eat. i no poison u. :) pass! wanna learn some more. :)

2. i clean toilet. yes. impress? thank you. haha. shinyshiny n smoothsmooth. i like. lets scrubscrub. oh-the-soap-smell.

3. i kemas my room. clean n tidy. (will be messy again once sch starts. hur hur.)

4. i sick. hur hur. such good timing i hav. oOoOo ubaaatt...oOoOo drowsyyy...oOoOo nose dun run away from meeee...but at least not so teruk la. bole tahan halal. :)

i shld giv myself a *pat at the back*. haha. such sudden self-improvisations.
well..just feel like i shld contribute something this raye..esp since both my sis da kawin n left me at home. i sad. i lonely. lets not emo. hahaha..ok bad joke.

my baju raya tak smpt siap. its ok. i dun mind. i hav alternatives. yayness!

i wished EVERYONE slamat beraye too. :) i bored. such entertainment i hav. hurmph...the expected n the unexpected. "bedal jer sume tiga2 tuu.." onli i noe..u duno nvm. enjoy!

"things u do when ur all alone at home."

YIKES!

heart-shaped paru anyone? :)
lovelove

last days of ramadhan

last night was really an interesting night.

went to geylang n boy sooooo ramai orrrgggg!!! phew!

but interestingly i bump into quite a number of familiar faces.

n that includes ARTISTSS!! dang! norfasarie n fiance, baihakki (right spellin? yes? no?) n boy was he tall!! very very tall. n i like norfa's hair. the style, not colour. heh.

then surprise surprise...

i bump into my KINDERGARTEN fren. HOW BOUT THAT!!! super old skool to the max!

too bad he dint recognise me. dude..oh how u've grown. n u still look like the gd lookin boi boi. haha!! :)

it feels gd to meet old frens. n see how they've been doin n all. too bad we cant catch up wit each other. :/

surprisingly also..this ramadhan i dun really bother bout buying the foods.

i dun really feel like eating any of those even! hur hur.

celebrated huda's bday a few days ago.

n surprisingly i actually enjoyed myself. very much. well actually im not really a birthday party kinda girl. but this is exceptional.

i felt comfortable. i felt welcomed. i was being myself. n it felt good. thanx guys. hehe.

we even teased her n her bf when he called (altho i barely know him. hurh.) but its good to tease. the art of teasing, i like. :D

i also got the ultimate FYP brief last tues. n boy i so DO NOT wanna read it before raye. n i still haf NOT read the brief up till now. hoho! lets just leave it that way for now aite. :)

"we went thru thick n thin together in those 3 yrs of friendship. n i hope the friendship continues!!"

wish liane n azi was there..!

n the song goes "ku mengharapkan ramadhan kali ini penuh makna"

i guess it does. one way or another.. despite the hardships, the struggles, the joys, the sadness, etc etc....

GOD LOVES ME. i love HIM too. :)

i feel so blessed. hehe.

you..

im tired of u always throwing tantrum, always berdentam-dentum brg2, always sulking.


do u noe i cant take this anymore?
do u noe im stressed up everytime this happens?
dont u noe thats y i ALWAYS stay out..always try to find something to do outside...
do u even noe that i cry silently in my room..in the toilet?? in the middle of the nite? n just now while doin the laundry??
have u any idea that this thot "i cant wait to get married n get out of here" EVER crossed my mind ever since both sis got married??


thats the reason y i always stay away
always in my room, in front of the comp...mindin MY OWN BUSINESS.
partly also the reason why i dun wanna get any bf..scared of ur comments or remarks.
i dun show u my true self.


i tried to get along wit you.

tried to help u ard...

tried to show u the real me.

but i always get myself hurt at the end of the day..nothing i do seems rite huh

i tried not to be rude.
u think u noe me so well..well news flash. YOU DONT!

its out

results are out. YES! results are out. the whole kampung of TP Design noes that! hehe.

the moment that i sort of waiting for yet keep myself away from..my heart dropped n i froze for a sec when i got the msg. dint wanna open it till liane had to persuade n psycho me to opening it. hur hur.

well, i hafta say alhamdulillah for my grades.

I PASS P3!!! i seriously tot i had failed considering lect's reactions n all..haiz..D+. jadi la.. bole tahan halal!! hehe!

n yea..JAPANESE!! tak sia sia ku blajar language mu.. kini ku jadi "haik, harajuku girl!!" hoho!!! B+ for that. n my dad says "ok, skarang u can work kat japan alr" hur hur. wait over there satu word pun takkan ku paham. (too fast diorg bobal)

well, i hafta say im pleased wit my results. sape tak kaann..gile kalo kate tak please. i pass for goodness sake! n also got one more distinction. :D happy happy slalu... but ive got ONE ULTIMATE SUBJECT LEFT!! FINAL YEAR PROJECT. n also one more cds to go. haiz.. hang in there!!

i kept thinking what am i gonna do aft i grad. i really dunno. one thing for sure, i wun be entering university. the expenses n finance. i cant make my parents pay even if i want to enter. actually i dunno if i wanna enter in the first place! most prob aft i grad i'll definitely try to find a job..n help my parents wit bills n any other expenses n stuff. they've spent quite a hefty sum on me n my edu..its time i repay their hard work. choices? be an art teacher....or be a graphic designer or sumthing along that line i guess.. any other choices..i'll hafta start askin ard to widen my choices. worst case scenario...part time first or not-related design jobs.. :/

but for now..lets just happy happy PUASEEE n RAYAAAA!!!! then face the ultimate subject. with open arms and fikiran yg tenang. AMIN!

s-c-a-r-e-d

i realise that the word SCARED is a very strong and impactful word on me.

because of SCARED,
i tend to hold myself back from doing alot of things.
i tend to restrict myself to certain things.
i tend to be wary and cautious of my actions.
i tend to think ALOT before i act. (there's alot of WHAT IFs goin thru my head)
and i usually take the safer and logical path.

im just scared of what the outcome gonna be
...scared of makin mistakes

basically, im just scared of getting hurt...one way or another.
i noe, who doesnt, right?
but thats just me.
i have this tendency of "once bitten, twice shy" attitude in me.
that i get serik easily. that "i-dont-wanna-go-thru-again." scenario.

im scared of not living to expectations. mine or my parents..or just the ppl ard me.
truthfully, im scared to show my true emotions and feelings too.
cos all this will lead to me getting hurt.

i noe its not healthy but i cant stop being scared. hur hur.

i guess i need to learn to take risks. :/

family buka!

"korg-korg eh..korg tau..korg cheat my money...sampe i go
BANKRUPT!" - shla

hehe.

had a superbly fruitful day.
its a gd thing i dint go sch today.
went to buka wit the whole family.
and i getta see my sis2. its been soooo long since i last saw her.
sisterly love babe!
AND ONCE AGAIN I GOT TEASED BY THEM. hur hur.

we went to eat at Makmur Cafe.
table for 7..but as usual..it comes in 4..so we're given 8 seater tables.
so definitely there's an extra seat. and so my mom went..
"sheela, ade lagi satu eh. tak nk ckp ah. but there's rm for one more. hehe"
then everyone started teasing me..again.
(looks like there's a PERMANENT slot during family gatherings to tease me eh..)
dad + mom
sis1 + bro1
sis2 + bro2
me + ??????
n yes they are encouragin or cant wait to see the guy thats gonna end up wit me. thank you very much. the pressure is on man!

the dishes were great!!!! n superbly YUMMILICIOUS!!!
beancurds, chickens, sotongs, fishes, beefs, prawns, eggs
haha..bulan ramadhan..mcm feasting gitu.

we ended the day playin monopoly.
yes..the old school monopoly with the money n dice.
but this time its not the original monopoly, its the disney monopoly. so all the graphics are disney related. CUTE!
only my dad, me, sis1 and her hubby played.
we played till 2 am!! hahahahha!!! hardcore man!
so the bankrupt list goes like this.
me > my sis > my dad . thus the ultimate winner was my broinlaw. cheater! haha.

it was fun.
but i went bankrupt first.
all because we played wrongly. HAHAHAHHA!!!
so i had to pay alot to other players. n aft i went bankrupt then my sis realize that we played wrongly cos she was reading the manual. hur hur.

"korg-korg eh..korg tau..korg cheat my money...sampe i go BANKRUPT!" - shla

that esp applies to my bro in law.
the story is too long to be typed down. so yea.
lets just say that he (esp) was the one that made me go bankrupt!
hehe.

AND!!! i getta watch tv again.
so i dint miss tonight's criminal minds show (yay! cute guy cute guy!!!)
and bones. hehe.

all in all..i had a blast today.
got myself a new tudung too. i just felt like buying something. heh!

sorang

been doin alot of thinkin..ever since my sis got married..n im the only child at home..n p3 is over.

my mind always fly to lala land n gets me reflecting on anything and everything.

this esp happens when im on the bus. yikes!

so yea..being the only child at home kinda sucks.

ull hafta think hardcore of what to do and wit who.

just the thot of HOW TO SPEND UR DAY? is tiring.

cos sometimes u just wanna go out (impromptu)..but u dun hav any company..n imagine walkin ard town..alone..its super boring hardcore!

plus..sisters hav their hubbies..n parents are always out..so ur more likely to be by urself.. most of the time. :/

like what zie said, "sometimes it sucks being the youngest".

hence, proven.

so having said that..i guess now everyones noes im a "home-y' person.

i hav nowhere to go!! i need to make more frens.

on the other hand, i am trying to make sure that i buka wit those close to me at least once.

so that kinda fill up some of my time

i just like company.

i like talkin.

i like listenin to ppl talk.

i like sharing sessions.

so the idea of me being alone or having to spend my time alone really bores me.

now tell me, WHAT CAN I DO?

"you will definitely get hurt if you let out all of ur heart and emotions, thus cover up." - shla (hah!)

what's ur flavor?

Mint chocolate chip ice cream wakes up people's taste buds, and you do the same thing when you walk into a room. The chocolatey bits represent your sweet, flirtatious side, and the minty flavor represents your high energy level. You are smart, witty, and you make a great first impression. Your friends value your advice, because you tend to see things from a fresh new perspective.

i was bored..~

senior yr

truthfully,

sometimes i wonder..actually alot of timessss i wonder if im really cut out for this.

being a design student.

i dont know izit cos im in the wrong course, or izit just that i really shouldnt be a design student.

seems like evrytime the big projects come, i dont seem to get things on the right track.

my marks are always borderline cases. altho im always scoring for electives.

i know i wanted to be a design student..or to do something that is related to arts or design.

but i guess its just hard.

i just hope that i will pass n graduate on time. the least i could hope for is a pass.

senior yr..

im holdin on. im just laughin it off.

but the 'demoralizing' feeling is still on.

the disappointments..sometimes im just disappointed in myself in not gettin it right.

18th august

18 August 2007

celebrated my dad's birthday.
i think..one thing bout my family, as we grow older, we tend to get lesser presents
hahaha..
well..this time none of us get my dad anything.
but it was still a memorable celebration.

all daughters n sons-in-law unite at home..had a lil prayer for him then we ate dinner.
special thing - our very own (first time) whole family eating together session.
sat on the floor, had a whole spread of diff kinds of fish dishes.
we had bbq stingray (wit sambal), ikan siakap (wit sambal), n i think its kuah lemak cili padi wit ikan bawal?..plus keropok ikan. wit other veg dishes.
aint im making u drool hard enuf?? wahahaha.. its pot luck!

it was fun..as we eat dinner we (me n sisters) obviously like recap the old memories..reminding each other how we were when we were still kids.
#1 : how my sisters got lost wit respective public transport. ie mrt n bus
#2 : how we used to play catchin while roller blading
#3 : how we used to tok non-stop at night in our room till we get scolding for not slping
and i guess the list just goes on..we practically talk about it n laughing at it. so the secrets out to the whole family. even the bro-in-laws are laughing. what a bondin session!

ended the day wit playing JENGA! hahaha...old school!
but it was fun fun fun..only that the mother dint play. mothers always dont join the fun ehh?

one thing for sure, my sisters really cant wait to see my "future to-be guy".
they cant stop sayin "nnt sheela nyer mcm maner pulak eh?"
i just found out..
#1 my first sis n her hubby loves to eat buah brangan (if u know what izit)
#3 she has mostly of my mom's features. n she n her hubby kinda hav some similar features..which makes them like my mom's category..
#4 both smile with teeth
#5 my sec sis n her hubby loves to drink milo. hoho!
#6 she has mostly of my dad's features...same thing for her and her hubby..which makes them under my dad's category..
#7 both smile without teeth
for me...i kinda forget my dulu2 kecik2 fav food (too many i think)..n i hav both mom n dad features one way or another.
so..hur hur! and that applies: "nnt sheela nyer mcm maner pulak eh?"
*shrugs* we'll just hafta wait n see then. hoho! :/
(pssT : wey dey! where hav u been hiding sehh??? hehe)

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btw..it feels good to know someone actually misses talkin to u..even tho u see them almost everyday..hehe. not that im sayin i dont appreciate it.. I DO HOR! heh..its just that it doesnt happen all the time..and im glad i made ur day baby dora (the explorer). u made mine too.. whahahaha!!! so we're talkin code now eh? when's our next exploration, babe? and what?? boots will be waiting! khekhehe...

bleah

HAIZ...

thats all i can say right now.
my mood hav been low this past few days....

i need solutions..
i need ideas...
i need...

i need to take things as it is n overcome it.
with a smile n open arms.
if u get wait i mean

i hafta get myself back up again..

HAIZ...

random

just need a new n fresh...
appearance?
outlook?

whatever it is called..hur hur

time to go with the flow.

time to start anew.

time to be dead bored at home.

the room is getting emptier n emptier each day.
the no of ppl is getting lesser n lesser.

n im stuck in my room.

fashion change.

its interesting how a person's sense of fashion can change over the years.

i rmb back when i was in lower sec -embarassing moments-
i always wear baggy tshirt wit bermudas n slipper. n my hair was tied up into a ponytail.
n i was super lazy to dress up. thats like my daily fashion.
just imagine.

until my sis keeps on sayin that if she were to go out wit me ppl might mistook us as les!
basket! grrr!!

but my fashion sense is different now. (thank god!)
aft my sisters gav me a knee length jeans skirt for my birthday during sec 1 or 2.
(wit the hope that i will become more girly)
HAHAHAHA!!!!

guess their hope was fulfilled.
now i cant stop but to keep dressin up. but there is still the sporty side of me. :)


how hav urs changed?

aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

thats exactly wat i wanna do...

aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG!!!

logically..my brain is constantly telling me to calm down
CALM THE BLOODY HELL DOWN....

my heart is soooo shaking to let this anger out.
if only whateva ive shouted in my heart can be like literally let out..

but im listenin to my brain..think rational..
no point being angry. so i hafta stay positive n think happy thots.
make jokes..laugh..LAUGH!!!!!!

no choice hafta resort to bloggin. hurhur..

affected

i THINK i prolly know why ive been having many dreams....

cos...

im going thru alot of peer pressure.
haaa....
nothing serious.
just some lil things that ppl talk bout that makes me think to myself.
putting myself in the shoes..that sorta thing.
normal convos that sets me thinkin.
like futures, schs, grades, relationships, life in general...

oh well.

n now i prolly know why ive been slacking and procrastinating.

1. i know i cant get the best out of what i do
2. considering that im a particular person, doin something that i know i cant do well really demoralise me. alot.
3. im just discouraged

but im living each day with extra juice to push me further. LAUGHTERS.
my only source of encouragement.
AFTERALL, i am a goofball (according to tickle test. hehe)

dreams or nightmares?

been having lots of dreams lately.
and i dont know what is the msg my dreams are trying to send me.

almost everyday..eh wait night..i dream bout im running.
both running AWAY and running FOR something.
exactly what..i dont know.
but i do know that ill feel lethargic when i wake up..
or i'll be tossing and turning..
sometimes its even hard for me to wake up cos im so engaged in the "movie",
which will lead me to waking up late.

just last night i dreamt that i was swimming, diving (just making sure that im under water)
hmmm...
what does this mean?

then again..are they dreams? or nightmares?
are they really my subconcious mind trying to tell me something? or izit just a devil's play?

8 more weeks to my sis wedding.

hmm..then ill be all alone here at home.

just like right now.

shes out wit her fiance.

i think once shes married, it will be diff for us to go out.

just like my second sis. ever since she got married, we dont even go out at all.

the things that i share wit her also getting lesser.

then ill be getting the "shla, when's ur turn?" and the "it will be her turn nex" remarks.

guess it sucks being the last child huh. hur hur.

i need to get a life..

here i am, stuck in my room, with nothing to do.

actually, theres something to do but im just sick n tired of facing it all the time.

altho it is my job, duty.

haiz...

sip's over. n its back to sch now.

i dont know what to look out for.

im quite excited but also not that excited to be back to sch.

partly cos im scared to face senior yr cos the responsibility is heavier.

same goes for the project requirements.

but i'll work hard for sure.

i wanna watch pirates.

i wanna watch fantastic4.

i cant expect for anything, but i sure do hope for something..

lets face it!

ok. lets face it.
i know im tough..
but im not sure if im tough enough to face 3 subjects in one block!

week 10-13 is a gonna be a super bombastic busy blk for me!!
ive got 9 to 9 classes everyday..
how am i gonna cope? I DONT KNOW.
p3, culture anthro n jap..lol!
what a combo!

im dead i tell ya!
im alr bad at time managment, now ive got 3 subs to manage!??!
oooooohh~....
then again..prob a good way to start practising time management then!
hurh!

then there's the digital essential. a design elect for me.
actually im alr done with des elect. but ive always wanted to take this sub since yr 1.
wonders of subject selection. lagging. now im yr 3 n done with elects then i get.
i didnt drop it tho. hope it could be of a good use n help for me in future.
not sure if i made the right choice on this one.
i think if helen were ard she would prob giv some advice on to keep or to let go.
but oh well..guess ive made my decision. just not sure if its wise..

i guess yr 3 is gonna be another roller coaster ride.
just how high or low the ride may be im not sure.
but i do know its gonna be ONE HELL OF A RIDE!
just hope im strong and positive enough to face it.

impromptu babe!

- impromptu day -

never did i expect to enter

THE GYM!!!!

nyahahha...

altho i did wish that i could go to one.

well..wish granted.

thanx to oh-so-lovely

AZIZAH!!!!

hahaha...very impromptu.

plan another thing, do another thing.

wanna play badminton, but in the end..go gym.

but had loads of fun trying the equipment

azi mcm pakar! she practically knows how they works.

LOL!

we should do this more often.

im still not satisfiedd with the threadmill

was looking down to see the speed, scared in case i fall backwards.

ahhaha...that will be interesting!

scary thing is..so many guys..

with BIG bodies..

n i mean BIG!!

but the place is great.

good scenery.

very spacious.

cheap.

....sooo....

azi, when's the next outing?

u've made me addicted!

u've made 2 ppl addicted!

u wanna make the whole gang addicted?

haha.

u! i miss you!!!

i think...

im missing my friends!!!
hohoho!!!

yea i do, hor!

i keep on wondering "how are they doing"
for no reason.

this IS just sip..its not even graduation yet.
hmm..i wonder how will that be.
ok i dont wanna imagine that yett...

ok gang...
im confessing something here..
something i wont say in real life...
I MISS YOU GUYSSSS!!!!!
i heart heart youuuu...lol!!
ahhahha.... :P
there it goes..

ok..back to my batik design.
buaaiiii....

shla buat comeback!!

ahahaha..ok

and so ive made a comeback to this blog of mine.

i nearly forgot my password!

huahuaha..

oh well..many things have happened so far.

so hear goes...

• the start of internship - stress i tell u!
• the making of new friends - :)
• ive reached the big 2 - hur hur!
• passing - but as usual, n always disappointing..the core main projects are always D
• the beginning of yr 3 - soon, aft sip
• more late night work, projects
• labelled as "project girl" - haha.
• the missed feeling of wearing sch uniform - LOL!
• the breakdowns n joyful moments - thank god for friends n family
• reflections on life
• appreciation session - hah!
• bonding session with friends n family

ok. thats all folks! :B

picnic day

and so..

Singapore have done us proud by winning the ASEAN match.

CONGRATULATIONS!!

it was a close competition.

im glad im not there tho cos the atmosphere is really scary.

heh.

but im sure proud of the players. :)

well..enjoyed my day today.

with the picnics - eating, cycling, frisbees

hanging out and having a good laugh - taking pics (thats a must!).

i miss being active la! hah!

but yea..it was very relaxing and fun fun fun~

it did drizzle but it was just a passing cloud.

so lucky us.

we then went home ard 630.

everyones eager to watch the soccer match.

s'pore vs thai.

and..

THEY WON!!

`wooowheee... heheh

saturday

i had a fruitful and enjoyable day last saturday.

really manage to enjoy and destress myself.

finally, i see the LIGHT. hahah.

started off going to sch for APEL class.

it was the last class, and we're the first grp to present.

finally we manage to get it done and over with.

then the gang went for lunch.

which aft that liane sent me to safra yishun.

and the oh-so-nice liane just had to trick me! saying that we had board the wrong bus and its gonna take 1 hr to reach!

wei..just because i stayed in the east side doesnt mean u can bully me hor!

well..just as we reached there my friends and sis just gotta reach later than the meeting time.

so, considering that we have nothing else to do, me and li decided to play the arcade!

nyehehe..we played from shooting to racing cars and bikes to "bishi bashi" to driving a truck/lorry?

but it was fun fun fun!!!

aft that li went home and i met my friends which we then went for sports climbing, which was still at safra yishun.

its an outdoor place and the walls are really high! shiok! but i dint manage to climb that high tho cos my hands got tired and the "rocks" were slippery. haiz..but it was really worth it, tho it was drizzling.

manage to destress and its been a long time since i last climbed

(did i mention that its outdoor and its really high?!!?)..so yea..

the feeling of i-miss-climbing kinda got cured. hehe.

then night came.

which my friends and i then rushed to kallang stadium/national stadium

(which one izit? or izit the same? hah!)

for the soccer match between SINGAPORE and MALAYSIA.

at first i tot it was the end when m'sia scored.

but it got a twist at the end and spore WON!! woohoo! haha.

(ive never been this patriotic towards soccer b4. seriously dont know what came over me)

it was a great experience tho, cos its my first soccer match that ive EVER attended! LIVE!

hahaha...

and im gonna go for the finals, btw.

so look out for me if ur going yea! hope to get a good seat.

the last time was ok lar.. i sat right under the score board. hmm..

HOLDING ON!!

i seriously dont know how many times ive cried cos of Project 2.

i dont know how many times ive refrain myself from crying cos of Project 2.

i dont know how many times ive become brain dead or im always put at a apot cos of Project 2.

i dont know how many times i thot of giving up cos of Project 2.

im tired of having to spent so much money on such expensive materials.

im tired of always asking people for help or solutions cos i seriously dont know how DnT works.

im tired of always being clueless of what to do or how to do.

but nonetheles,

i try to remain calm.

i try to think positive.

i try to remain strong.

i try to challenge myself.

i try to push myself further.

i try to motivate myself.

my source of motivation???

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xjk2cMrZ2dI

its from the movie "Raise Your Voice".

the lyrics are very meaningful..esp if u sing along to it.

plus..the deadline's near..its a pity and wasted effort if i were to give up now.

i just need to HOLD ON for a week!!!

GO SHEELA!!! :S

show me the light.

biar susah dahulu, senang kemudian.

(face hardships first, and you'll get success in the future)

my translation is no that good..but oh well!

that phrase has always been the one motivating me throughout my journey in poly.

but for now, i dont know if i can rely on it any longer.

again, im on the verge of giving up.

but i CANT. i DONT WANT. i SHOULD NOT.

im tired. im exhausted. im disappointed.

once again, i hafta pick myself up from the fall.

the fall that have the same cause all the time.

and the cause is, my ideas is always not fully developed (not good enuf) or its already in the market.

and somehow, theres always no time for me to work on it. therefore i hafta "chop chop".

theres two sides of me talking.

one is a negative, and the other is a positive.

i always try to ALWAYS listen to the positive,

but i myself wonder,

"how strong is my positive, to make me be able to go thru with this hurdle?"

i know im not the give up kind,

i know i can still make it, not alot, a little bit will do.

"but how strong can i be to pull myself up back again?"

i just hope that i'll be stronger as days goes by.

i hope and pray that GOD give me strength and guidance to pick myself back again.

i hope that i could generate ideas fast. good ideas.

i hope that i could do well for P2.

i hope that there's an extension in the deadline. :/

beginning of 2007

oh k..finally ive decided to update my blog. havent been having the mood or idea to "talk" on my blog, ever since my late cousin passed away.

suddenly i feel like "whats the use of blogging when at the end of the day u'll go..n who actually cared?" hmm...up till now sometimes when i think bout her death, i dont seem to be able to accept it. was close to her when i was little girl..not anymore when ive grown older, but secretly speaking, evry raya i would look out for her when my family go visiting to my aunt's house. and being able to just see her would just make me feel contented. so for the next raya...i dont know how it'll be.

well, lets put that thot at the back of my head for now. cos life have to carry on..

its 2007, and this yr i DONT have any new yr resolutions. cos i think its dumb, and truthfully speaking, i dont follow any of my past resolutions if i ever rmb them. so whats the point of having them - pointless! hah!

the updates that i have ever since new yr is that

• ive started my project 2 again, which will make me be very busy. i just hope that i'll be able to cope considering that i have limited days of finishing my project. i wonder how other poly schooling students from all courses is able to cope esp if they're juggling work, school, cca, studying, blah blah... its like "izit me who is bad at managing time or izit really cos i have lots of work to do or have i been lazying ard (which i doubt that)?" hmmm....
• next is that i play taufik batisah's latest cd almost everyday. harhar! not that im so patriotic towards our first s'pore idol, but i think the songs are good and pleasing to the ears. :) u go boy! hee...
• then there's me always feeling lazy to eat altho when im hungry..i just feel like im always eating and now im tired of it. i also dont understand.
• and im also feeling lazy for now to dress up when i go to school, unlike when i was yr 1 or first sem of yr 2. prob for now, close to being a senior have put me to have that 'whatever' mood of my dressing sense, and the 'i cant be bothered' thing going on. which is bad cos ive got sip(attachment) and we need to dress up and look presentable.
• i think, im kinda sensing the existence of me transforming from a "girl" to a "lady". im entering the big 2 this yr..(*hint hint*) and somehow im beginning to like and want to
  1. carry a handbag instead of the usual tote bag (which ive accomplished that)
  2. try to wear make up :X i mean like compact powder, blusher, lip gloss, eye shadow +++, instead of just eyeliner, lip gloss n powder. BUT laziness always gets the better of me. khekhekhe...
  3. wear a V-shape/pointed pump shoe instead of the usual sneakers
• i experienced GOD's love towards me and that He's always there for me. (its btwn me and Him..haah)

well...thats all i can think of for now. gotta get back to my sketches. :B